id like real people. id like tidy thoughts. id like to not leave a wet spot on your shoulder and seat belt. id like to talk to you without having to talk through an open window in the parking lot long after i should have left.
id like some closure. id like to scream my stupidity out. id like clean beaches for my thoughts. id like warm physical contact from a loving body. id like sweet dreams. some peace. the tight feeling in my back and stomach to smooth itself out.
happily sad music in the dark. the feeling of running and being very very lazy gone. the fear of staying stuck. the hesitation before going home relieved. the sense of inevitability turn into something positive. a night with you. something nice. something whole. theraputic tears. something right. security. looking forward to. money money time time