i have faith in confidence. and i have faith in blind hope. and i know that every possibility is always available. every second is a door and at any instance that door could swing open and suck everything into it.
i know things change. i have faith in growth. i have faith in despair. i have faith in patterns and precendents. i understand causation isnt always what links one thing to another.
i understand roles. i want to jump ship. i want to drown quickly. i want to fly through the clouds. i want to break into space and keep going.
i want to leave everything. every pattern. every causation. every silly stupid hope and bit of confidence on the ground. and only have faith in this leap of faith.
that i can leave that all behind.